thoughts while bathing.

i think it must have been pretty depressing to read my blog. aye, wondering if i should like just blog elsewhere and not tell anyone about it. i mean, if one keeps reading depressing or sad or just negative posts from a friend.. haha i dont think it will do any good too right?

but the whole purpose of this blog is kind of for me to vent out my frustrations, rants and all the negative stuff i wanna say so that i would be more positive in like actual interactions with people mah.

and i have no idea why, but recently, many these few months or something..while bathing i get extremely irritated. i just lump different events that have like tiny similarities or even make up a whole new situation up in my head that doesnt even exist and get very pek chek and angry over the whole thing. seriously. =( this is extremely stupid and i know it and of course i do some damage control before i blow up and stuff. but why do i have so much anger brewing in me?

i used to have the most creative /productive thoughts when i bathe! and i aint kidding either. like when i'm stuck trying to solve a problem or when i was doing fyp.. most of my progress in ideas came to me when i was in the toilet. haha it sounds wrong but its absolutely true.

i think it is(or was) rather therapeutic to let the cold water like run through your face and stuff? but arghhh, so much negative energy in me these days or weeks! rawr! maybe that is why i have a pimple outbreak!

i really dont like being angry so i cave in rather easily. but sigh, sometimes some people thread over more landmines in a genuine attempt to put out the first one. rawr. and it pisses me off so badly but i know i shouldnt be cos the intention was good and stuff.