i m weird.

i knew i wasnt cut out to be in the sales sector and i never ever aspire to start up my own company or anything. and after some try outs and blunders, i realised even more so that i m not cut out in the business line, cos i cannot bear to earn my friends money! =.= because i m a person with so much guilty conscience or whatever you call that.

so although i m selling the stuff at really cheap prices...i end up selling my friends stuff at the actual price i got them at.. or even giving the stuff to them. then end up not even making money leh. so ridiculous.

like i cant even surf facebook on my work computer without feeling all jittery, when i have a rather private cubicle where nobody can see my computer. lets just say i cant even bring myself to surf facebook. and it takes me alot of guts to use the workplace printer to print even say 1 page of my personal stuff. =.= thats why i have a printer at home...like i dont think any of the bosses care. and i know alot of ppl print their own stuff usin the printer at work..but sometimes i m so jittery that i bu da zhi zhao =.=

hai. "paiseh-ness" is kinda my weakness too. too paiseh to wear a cap under the hot sun when bosses dont wear. when other of my colleagues just open their huge umbrellas. too paiseh to keep bosses in the email thread cos i m afraid that they feel that i m spamming them.

i think sometimes i over think, which puts alot more pressure on myself =.= like i know, but i just cannot help it. anyway, for a start, i m learning /forcing myself to hold an umbrella under the hot sun when i m at site now. cos my skin is really suffering like crap! extremely burnt and wrinkly =(

argh, there I cant seem to have different nick names for different blogs! this is kinda stupid, cos usually different blogs would mean different character and purpose, so how can we use the same damn nickname!  And I dont want all of my blogs to be interlinked! =.= sigh.