i knew i wasnt cut out to be in the sales sector and i never ever aspire to start up my own company or anything. and after some try outs and blunders, i realised even more so that i m not cut out in the business line, cos i cannot bear to earn my friends money! =.= because i m a person with so much guilty conscience or whatever you call that.
so although i m selling the stuff at really cheap prices...i end up selling my friends stuff at the actual price i got them at.. or even giving the stuff to them. then end up not even making money leh. so ridiculous.
like i cant even surf facebook on my work computer without feeling all jittery, when i have a rather private cubicle where nobody can see my computer. lets just say i cant even bring myself to surf facebook. and it takes me alot of guts to use the workplace printer to print even say 1 page of my personal stuff. =.= thats why i have a printer at home...like i dont think any of the bosses care. and i know alot of ppl print their own stuff usin the printer at work..but sometimes i m so jittery that i bu da zhi zhao =.=
hai. "paiseh-ness" is kinda my weakness too. too paiseh to wear a cap under the hot sun when bosses dont wear. when other of my colleagues just open their huge umbrellas. too paiseh to keep bosses in the email thread cos i m afraid that they feel that i m spamming them.
i think sometimes i over think, which puts alot more pressure on myself =.= like i know, but i just cannot help it. anyway, for a start, i m learning /forcing myself to hold an umbrella under the hot sun when i m at site now. cos my skin is really suffering like crap! extremely burnt and wrinkly =(
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