they are going to perform the tribal piece again for freshmen inauguration in august.

initially i was like,
"oh shit i really dont feel like doing it again cos i m lazy and scared and i think i cant rmb the moves at all"

then when i realised that its on 1aug, the day i start work, i was like
"YES! i cant make it" =.=

now, i'm feeling guilty for having those feelings. haha damn it. i probably should go back for trainings right? i mean i shouldnt be like so "ban du er fei". i used to hate skipping lessons in whatever i learn, now i just keep finding excuses to skip lessons. whats wrong with me now? used to be so ambitious with everything. but i just cant find that drive anymore these years. gaah. but i m really scared to go back for lessons! =(

and last time i can say that cos i dont really have friends in the cca. now i have, but we aint that close, but ayeeee, i feel that i should start contacting them again but haha at times i feel like just giving up those friends too =X i do admire how some ppl (like zoe) manage to close friends like just within a few weeks or days. like its just so hard to click at times. and it totally freaks me out when some ppl are too friendly too. ok, i'm antisocial! i really dont like socialising. zzzzzzz. and its tiring to keep contacting those newly found friends to form a stronger bond so i will usually just brush it all away. which is kinda sad isnt it? and prolly i'm just really bad with connecting with ppl =.=

and arghh, some stupid ppl keep asking me to plan class outing again. like helllo! i aint the class rep you know. and not that we haven been meeting up, its just you always not free so we stop including you, oops. but since u are the one who wants the outing, cant u like plan smthing instead. booo.